I was never preoccupied by the fate / free will topic, mostly because I felt that my default setup is the free will and fate is just a subordinated factor which I can overwrite or derive from; it worked fine until The Alchemist appeared on the scene. It was both fate and free will, separately and together. I called it the Ouroboros-moment – The Ouroboros is The Great Serpent which encompasses and sweeps over the opposites – sky and earth, fate and free will, past and future.
Since then, I left behind the series of Why-s and How-s, I am only thinking sometimes, who is to blame – beside me – or to whom should I be grateful, or both? The planetary alignment, spirits or should I just stay grounded and go for the producer? Infinite Laughs and sometimes tears. But ultimately, I am grateful, because I was reminded of the inner knowledge of him which came up as a forgotten revelation; it feels surreal – or rather “inter-real” because it holds me at the border R1/R2 border (says an engineer – Infinite Laughs, exact sciences are overrated).